People like to ask why I’m doing this and, well, it’s mostly because: why not? I’m at a stage in life where I want to actively date and remain single as a solo poly bi woman, so why not learn something about myself in the process. I don’t see this as a way to make fun of anyone I go out with, no, on the contrary, this is a way to make fun of myself. Hell, if I went out with someone, I’m the one who picked ‘em.
That’s on me. Back in 2019, I went to intensive outpatient therapy. When I did my intake and answered all the questions about the abusive relationship that led me there, the lady said, “Oh, you’ve got a broken picker.” I also heard someone say that on Darcey and Stacey or maybe it was 90 Day: The Single Life, I don’t know. Either way, it resonated with me. We all have a picker, so what is mine tuned into? What is up with my picker? I didn’t date for a little over a year after that and, well, that pretty much brings us up to where this project started.
Some people ask: What are the worst dates you’ve been on? What did you learn? In order to fine tune my picker, I compiled a list and sincerely asked myself: How the hell did I get myself here?
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